IT'S SHOWTIME...

It's my time to Shine, Slay, and Show Off... Like we say in Theatre - IT'S SHOWTIME... A bit late but I'm glad I accepted things before getting vanished into the thin air in this lifetime. The fear of not being able to live a life where I'm true to myself has crippled my senses for the longest time, and the worst part is - I never acknowledged it and myself, for the majority of my life. The onus of being a 'Gooooodd Girl' for my family has weighed too heavy on my chest for the longest time, but honestly, I never cared about being the good girl but more about the people I would hurt if I become the best version of who I'm.

It won't be wrong to say that I have a tiny bit of regret but my promise to myself is to shift the focus from the past and live one day at a time and the rest of my life on my terms. Good, bad, ugly - I want to own it, flaunt it, and never shy away from it. No camouflage, no pretense, no being good - just the raw, naked version of myself. And as I realize, it might have a cost attached to it. I feel vulnerable, volatile, and insecure but I'm still up for it.

I always thought it was my job to fix everything - relationships, situations, my family, and the list goes on. Today, when I sit back and wonder, I feel it was never meant to be my job. I'm not here to fix anything, and I can't fix anything for anyone. Noooo, I can't. I'm practicing saying 'NOOO' as that's another area where I majorly need to work upon. 

Let me accept - I'm No superwoman. I'm tired, worn out, restless, and hurt... but I still have a fire burning within. The desire to do so much more, be much more, over the top, and slay everything like a Queen. Never to look back, never to be tamed down, allow no one to take my shine away, no damn person or situation can have that power on me now... Nothing...